He says he wants to change and he will try.
For how long will I believe the same worn-out lie?
He says it over and over again, yet nothing has changed and I wonder when…
Will I ever learn from the same mistakes?
To see the signs before my heart breaks.
I should have seen it right from the start,
All along he loved me but with an empty heart.
He was a broken human I thought I could fix,
I didn’t know I had to put my own life at risk.
When you find yourself at the bottom of the ocean,
With no more strength to keep on going,
Don’t give up, don’t give in,
All you have to do is learn how to swim.
I was there, broken and destroyed,
But he was something else,
He was two-faced and paranoid.
It didn’t matter if I was wrong or right,
All that mattered to him was winning the fight.
He couldn’t understand and he couldn’t see,
Because he was too busy finding faults in me.
Sometimes it felt like I was talking to a wall.
Once he heard me cry and felt nothing at all.
When I realized what he truly was, it was already too late.
He had put my heart in prison and there was nowhere to escape.
It looked like I was no longer myself.
It felt like I was walking on eggshells.
Scared of saying things that he thought were wrong
Scared of being punished for something I hadn’t done
I thought “Nobody understands” and suddenly I was all alone
I had no more friends, they all left one by one.
I had turned into an easy target, all on my own.
By the look on his face, he thought he had won.
I was lonely and full of shame
I could hardly look at myself in the mirror
Because I knew I only had myself to blame
For not being able to see things clearer
For thinking I could turn someone cold into warm
For failing to protect myself from someone
Who only knew how to harm.
I wasn’t paying attention enough
To recognize all the damage he had caused
On my soul, on my body, and on my heart
Not until I started to collect the scattered pieces, part by part.
I realized for far too long, I had let him make me feel,
This is what I am worth.
Far too long he had made me think,
I deserve to be hurt.
It was time to pick up the shields and the swords
Remove the power of all his meaningless words
Now that I am finally free, I can figure out who I truly am.
Brick by brick, I can build myself up again.
With time I will learn how to move on from this,
Although I believed every word from his lying lips.
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